I'm 37 weeks pregnant now. Woke up all right coz I got to snuggle with Jayden for a little while. Then, quite inexplicably, I just felt like this was the worst day ever. I know it was crazy to feel this way, coz nothing had changed from yesterday besides the fact that I had probably gained another KG by breathing.
Stupid pregnancy hormones. Thankfully, I have been pretty stable emotionally after the fifth month or so, so this comes as an unwelcome surprise. I don't know how to explain it, nor do I want to. I know I can't always blame the hormones, but what else could it be? I got the opportunity to work from home and be closer to Jayden, be able to lie down when my bum hurts too much to sit for long, be able to eat home-cooked meals and snack on tons of fruits and nuts when I want to.
I know I am blessed. And yet this dark piece of cloud hanging over my head is just. not. leaving.
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